i leave tomorrow from san salvador about 1 o'clock, and i will return to pennsylvania 11:15 eastern time. i'm very thankful about the timing because i tink it will prevent any problems with jet lag that i might have had. it's only two hours difference, but still, i am thankful. i haven't been sleeping very well the past few nights because oso, the rodriguez family dog, has been waking me up. so i'm looking forward to sleeping in my bed at home!
it's so amazing to me how this time has come to an end at just the right time. erica and i are both ready to leave. it isn't that we want to leave the people we've met. it's that we're both just ready to be back home. this is a funny feeling for me because i'm normally gone away to school for months on a time. i think the only difference is just that i haven't been in as much contact with everyone as i normally am when i am at school. i've been removed from everyone who is really close to me rather than just one group.
yesterday was a little rough for erica and i. the church went to the lake for baptisms. it was a huge family day, and we were both already a little homesick. on top of that, we're just a little drained from relating to people. it can be tough after a while. for me, i was just having trouble making an effort when i know that i am leaving so soon. i really am thankful for all the relationships i have made while being here. i want to stay in touch and also to continue praying for those i have gotten to know. but i am ready to go.
it's weird to leave somewhere that i have, more or less, lived in for six weeks. it feels like i will return home and nothing will have changed. it kind of makes me wonder if i will feel like these last six weeks haven't happened. it's hard to leave in some ways too. i don't know whether or not i will ever see the hawk family or the rodriguez family again. i think that i will, but you never know where life will take you.
i've learned so much while being here. God changes me every day....no matter where i am. but there are some big things He has worked on me while i was here. i feel like He has taught me a lot about who i am. i understand to a greater extent that He truly has created me just as i am. but this also means that i am responsible for the weaknesses that i have. i am responsible to recognize them and to learn how to respond with love no matter how i´m feeling. i don´t think that my emotions will ever really tone down...although some people have told me otherwise. and it´s okay that they won´t. i can recognize my feelings as valid and yet still respond correctly.
we finished english classes, watched a movie with kaitlin today, and got to see sammy´s volleyball game. soon we are eating our last popusas and giving the gifts to our host missionaries. i had my exit review today and realized how awesome this experience truly has been for me. He is so faithful to work in us everyday.
i am going to go now because there is a huge thunderstorm. pray for me as i say my goodbyes and as i go on the travel home and then as i prepare to leave for asbury. it´s going to be a crazy few days. i am so thankful that God brought me here. i´m so glad He gave me the opportunity to know these people. and i´m so glad that He chooses to grow me wherever i am. thanks to all of you for the great amount of support and the way you have prayed for me these past weeks. you have no idea what you´ve done for me, and i just thank you all so much.
i can´t believe i´m signing off of here. i can´t believe i´m leaving. but most of all, i can´t believe all the good that has happened. thank you again. i truly appreciate all of you.
i love you all! goodbye and goodnight!
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